My Why

Ever since I left college, I feel like I've been constantly chasing "my why."  Mostly, why am I here and what am I suppose to be doing (you know, the easy questions of life!)   It's hard enough for anyone in their twenties to completely figure out who they are, let alone know what they want to be when they grow up!

I think the only two things I knew for sure was, I didn't want to work in a traditional 9-5 job and I wanted to feel like I was making an impact on the world (in someway or another). 

For those who don't know, I have a Bachelor's in Science with a concentration in Speech Therapy, I worked in a middle school for six years and coached soccer & track while I was there.  People thought I was a little nuts for not returning after I had my first kid, they all thought I had the "dream job," perfect hours, summers off, great healthcare... but when your job doesn't light you up inside, then it's time to find something else that will.

During that time, I had fallen in love with photography again and quickly told myself that this was it, I would then become a world famous photographer (simple!) Not quite.  Raising humans is hard, raising a business is even harder, and constantly reminding yourself that you're good enough is extremely hard!  So fast forward almost four years and I still feel like I'm at square one.  Rome wasn't build in a day, right?!

But, I digress.

My main purpose for this post is to tell you that sometimes you may never quite figure out your why, or your why changes and evolves! 

It took something super simple for me to figure that out... all I had to do was get in front, yes, in front of the camera.

I had asked my friend Amber, to snap some family/maternity photos for us before baby #2 arrived.  It was totally last minute, super laid back at the beach.  I knew that I needed to get in the frame, be present in the photographs with my family. 

I didn't realize how transforming it could be for me... I blame my hormones, but in that moment I realized that my baby wasn't going to be the baby anymore.  That this would be the last time I would feel tiny kicks inside, that I wouldn't feel baby hiccups again, and I wouldn't get to hold another tiny baby after 9 months of bonding.   I realized that my hair would just keep getting grayer and we would just keep getting older.  My weight is going to fluctuate, my skin will wrinkle, and my baby's would get to older to pick up and cuddle.  (I'm crying now as I write this!)

It was in that moment that what I do is so much more than a photo shoot!  It was so imperative I have these memories documented.  I would one day wake up and send my baby's off into the world and I didn't want to forget this special time in my (our) lives! 

All I really cared about was being in the frame with my daughter and my husband, I didn't realize it would change me.

Thank you Amber...

If I can help you get infront of the frame with your little ones or big little ones, let's connect!!!